davemanbme

Hola BuddySlim peeps! Yes, it is Wednesday and I am still at it! I have not done any exercise yet today. but I plan on walking around the block for thirty minutes after I finish this post and finish watching the news. Today I had my usual Slim-Fast for breakfast. I just love the flavor of and texture of Slim-Fast inj the morning. I know, I’m crazy! For lunch I had some pretzels and chicken salad in a lettuce wrap. I made the chicken salad with “light” mayo, so as to cut down a few of the calories. For dinner I ate the final leftovers of my beef tips in gravy(small portion) and I had it over some Bird’s Eye Steamfresh rice. If I figured it right, I think it was 610 calories. I can live with that. I feel like a made a conscious effort to really pay attention to my portion sizes today.

  Now for a little change of pace I am introducing “Dave’s Look At The Movies & TV”. Recently I have seen some great movies. I saw Crazy Heart two weeks ago and I am telling you people, this is one hell of a flick! I am so happy Jeff Bridges won the Oscar! It is a beautiful story of heartache and then personal redemption. I am no fan of country music, but the songs ib the movie were beautiful and told the story along with the movie. If you download music, I encourage you to listen to “The Weary Kind”, the theme from Crazy Heart. I hate to say this, but I fought hard against seeing “The Blind Side” because it just looked to mushy and fake in the previews. Boy was I wrong! That movie touched my heart and I wanted more when it ended and for me, that’s a sure fire sign that I just saw a great movie. Sandra Bullock, just like Jef Bridges, deserved the Oscar. She has evolved into one of the premier actresses of my lifetime. This movie is not about football either. It is about a young man who’s life is transfomed by the love of a family that teaches him how to play football. If this doesn’t tug at your heartstrings, you need to go to the doctor and make sure you still have a heart!

  OK, I have bored ya enough! I just put those movie reviews in to remind us to take our minds of losing weight for a little bit. Jeez, as we all well know, it’s a hard enough battle as is! You all have a great night, keep up the good work, and share your stories with us. I myself need to read them to stay focused! C-Ya!

Well, it’s two in the morning and I just woke up and realized that I did not do part of my goals for Monday. I did write a post on BuddySlim! Today I made it all happen people! I wrote down EVERYTHING I ate, I walked for about twenty minutes, and now I am writing my daily post on BuddySlim! I did not eat the best food today, but I did control my portion sizes and for me, that’s a HUGE step! I tend to way over eat and go past when I know I’m full. I had an eighteen ounce Slim-Fast I made myself. At lunch I had two leftover slices of pizza I had made the night before. For dinner I had som beef tips over rice and some green peas. Yes, I know you’re asking yourself, “Were those beef tips in gravy?” and the answer to that question is YES! I know, oh so B-A-D, but I only had a small bowl. I also just had a small bowl of leftover rice with three tablespoons of gravy just before I started writing this. That too is another one of my lethal weaknesses, eating late at night. I tend to do it if I wake up and it makes me so mad at myself. I guess I am going to have to cut up some celery and carrots and grab a hanful of those if I feel the need to “Sleep Graze” as I l;ike to call it!

  That’s about all I can give at 2am boys and gals! It’s a small step forward in my book and that is always better than a step backwards. Ahhh, it feels so good to be writing again! Until we chat again my Buddies, eat smart, move yourself some, and believe you can do this! Davemanbme…OUT!!!!

Yes, it’s me David L. Smith back to try, try again! I have gained back the weight I had lost and now I have to start all over again. That is very depressing, but this is something I have to do if I want to have a life again. I wish it wasn’t going to take so long to get to where I gotta go, but the road of a million miles begins with the first step. I love food so much and it really is the only good thing I have in my life right now. What am I going to do without the thing that gives me the most comfort? I am killing myself though and my body is failing me at a rapid pace. I want to live and I want to get out in the world again. I find that motivating myself to exercise is my biggest hinderance. I hate that I have let myself get so out of shape and I know I am going to be so sore with just the minimum amount of exercise. I wish I had a person that would be my main support buddy that would hold me accountable as to what I eat and doing some exercise. Any takers out there in BuddySlim world??!! LOL! Here are my three main goals for this week.

 Week 1 Goals

1-Write a post every day on BuddySlim.

2-Record everything I eat this week..NO CHEATING OR FUDGING!!!!!

3-Walk every day even if it’s only for 5 minutes!

 Do those sound too unreasonable to anyone? I guess I’ll just have to apply the AA motto to these goals. One day at a time. If that’s too hard one hour at a time and if that’s too much, five minutes at a time. I hope I can regain the friends I had made here before and hopefully, make many new ones! OK, time to get some some rest and prepare for Day 1. See ya’ll soon my friends!

Hi BuddySlim world, it’s me David! I need to apologize for staying away for so long, but I have a good reason. There’s no easy way to put this, but I tried to commit suicide. I took alot of pills, drank alot of alcohol, and hoped it would all be over, but, I couldn’t even get that right. I am under a doctor’s care and, thankfully, out of the hospital, but I am a definite work in progress. It is so hard losing weight and I love food so much, I bet it’s what I know best in this whole world. I miss my old girlfriend and I loathe being alone. The economy is killing me and my job and I just decided I had had enough! I hope you all can forgive me and know that I mean it when I say I want to see you all make your goals and get where you wanna be. I am still trying to lose the weight, but not as hard. I need to work on my outlook on life alot harder. If ya’ll pray, I’d very much appreciate your prayers! I hope I can just get better! I miss youse guys and I will write more soon!  C-YA!

Well howdy there BuddySlim people! I bet you all thought I forgot ya’ll didn’t ya? NO FREAKIN WAY! I have been sick as a dog. I run Fort Mill # 5 voting precinct here, and we had an election primary last Tuesday. Well, as usually happens alot of the time after an election, I got sick. You know you have to meet and greet a ton of people and touch alot of other people as we interact during the course of the day, so alot of times us workers get sick in the days afterwards. This bout I have had has been much worse than usual, I mean I was having temps of around 102 degrees the whole time. I saw a few hallucinations there at times! SERIOUSLY! I could not eat anything either so HOORAY for me, I dropped down to 352 lbs when I managed to get on the scales. BINGO! I have reached my first mini-goal! Thank you flubug! man if I knew I could get those results everytime I got sick, I’d take the flu more often! JUST KIDDING, being sick was the WORST! Especially since I had no one to help take care of me. WAAAAA, poor Davey boy! I’m sure this sob story is tugging at all ya’ll’s heartstrings, right???!!! LOL! Anyway, I am so happy to know that I will soon be below 350 lbs! I know that I can do this and I am still as committed as I can be! I want to do this so badly and every little loss is getting me towards the endgame!

   I want to say thank you to all of you who sent me messages wondering where I was and if i was ok. StaceyC, Lori, Jessie, Jennifer, Dot, Carroll, Tiffany, Poetry, and anyone else I may have forgotten to mention, please forgive me! Thank you all. I would crawl to my computer check e-mails for 10 minutes and crawl back into bed. I did not have the strength or energy to reply. I hope you all have made great strides towards your goals and I hope you all will give me some good lovins with a few great reports on big weight loss!!! I miss talking to you all alot and i know how much I need you guys to keep me motivated and goal orientated. It’s Monday people so let’s rock this week and drop a few pounds shall we!!???!! I gotta run but I better hear from youse guys!!! C-YA!!

Yeah, if most of you don’t know by now, I gained two, almost three pounds this week.  I feel so disappointed in myself and I am angry at myself. I was just lazy this week and did not exercise enough and I ate the wrong things, and more than I should have of those things! I compounded the failure by just pigging out last night around midnight on CRAP! I felt like saying” SCREW THIS! I was meant to be fat my whole life, so just forget even trying.” Well, I am happy to report that Dave don’t give up so easily! Today I have done some serious soul searching and I just have to face the facts that this is going to be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and it is going to take a LONG time! I am eating pizza tonight with family and friends, but Saturday morning, IT’S ON BABY! I also did not paticipate as much this week on buddyslim, and I know that was part of my demise as well! I had no partner this week and I work better with someone who’ll hold me accountable DAILY! I WILL MAKE 300 POUNDS BY NEW YEAR’S DAY-BOOK IT!!! I am cranking up the exercise this week and putting the hammer down!

   I hope I have made the point clear that each and every one of you out there is helping me. I am losing this with you all, not by myself.  I hope you all will give me the swift kick in the you know what if you see me missing or not blogging. I am not going to be fat anymore! I am going hiking tomorrow until I have a river sweat trailing behind me and the hikers that come behind me will need a freaking kayak to get down and up the trails!!! I will post how the weekend went Sunday night, so get ready, I am going to have some frackin’ positive news to report! That scale is going to regret giving me the bad news this week!!! I am rooting for all ya’ll this weekend to give 100% and lose some LBS. TOO!!!! C-YA!!!!!!!!!!

Well I hope everyone had as great a Labor Day weeken as I did! I was all over York County, South Carolina hunting down geocaches, going to high school football games, hanging with family and friends, cooking out, and yes, the most dreaded of sins when on a diet, eating CiCi”s Pizza Buffett!!! Holy Stuffed Canoli Batman! I know I have overeaten this weekend and I am already dreading my visit to see Mr. Scales on Thursday night! I think he’s not going to be very generous to me on the pounds shed this week I am trying to make up for it today and until the, working out like a banshee and REALLY watching what goes down my gullet! It’s all on me and I am damned well determined to still lose between 2 and 3 pounds! I MUST! I was 1 POUND away last week from making my first mini-goal of 355 lbs! I WANT THAT SOOOOOOO BADLY! I feel so incredibly strong spiritually when I achieve goals. It makes me so much more determined and let’s me know that the time and sacrifice I am putting into this is working. I want to be right at 300 lbs by Christmas and making these goals shows me I CAN DO IT! I cannot speak for each one of you, but I am sick and tired of being F-A-T!!! Those days are soon to be ancient history for this guy!

   I found 9 geocaches over the holidays and that was so cool and totally rewarding. I have hooked the neighbor’s kids on it and they are pestering their parents to by them a hiking GPS so they can do it on their own! Needless to say, the grown-ups aren’t too happy with me, because they’re now going to have to kick out 150 dineros to buy them one. I joke because actually they are so glad that I have shown these children an activity that gets them off the couch and outside doing something productive. Both the kids who I have been taking play ALOT of video games and live on the computer, so getting outside and in nature is opening their eyes to a whole new world! I STRONGLY encourage any oparent that wants to bond with their children, try geocaching. It is the PERFECT family activity and I have see numerous parents with all their children out hiking the trails having a blast finding hidden “treasure”!!! If interested in learning more about what it’s all about and how fun it is, go to geocaching.com and you’re all set! I bet each one of you out there, there is a geocache hidden within 5 miles of where you live! REALLY Enter your zip code at geocaching.com and it will show you right where they are and how far away they are from your front door! I think that’s cool, but I’m kinda a dork anyways!

Well, I hope to hear from some of you this week because last week felt lonely. No one semed to be around in BuddySlim world and I was out here all alone! LOL! I miss hearing from youz guys and all the support and motivation you all give me. I hope each one of you can look in the mirror and say you’re giving 100% to reaching your goals and if not, why not? I hope I can help someone in some small way and if anyone needs to chat, I LOVE dishing, oh crap, that sounded so gay, oh crap, I hope that wasn’t offensive to anyone who’s gay! LOL! I just want to make friends and have some fun while I am doing the hardest thing that an adult can do, in my humble opinion, losing weight. I will holla at all my peeps again very soon and until then, this is davemanbme saying C-Ya!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TdGxdXqTTA  I made a little 6 minute video showing a new typical healthy meal that I eat on my diet. I want to share how one can still eat good food yet make healthy decisions. I hope someone will watch and leave me some comments. If you do watch it, will you please rate it while you’re there so I know whether ya’ll want me to continue with stuff like this or if I am boring ya to tears. I love to cook and I am hoping that it will be enjoyable because I’d really like to film more of my cooking expeditions. Remember, this is my first one, so I am going to get better each time! Enjoy it, my buddyslim friends!

Hey world, I know it’s Monday, and very dreary here, but where is everyone at. Oh yeah that work thing does interfere alot too, but I have been amazed at how little activity there’s been today. Did we all suck at our diet and exercise plans this past weekend??!! I did great at exercising, but I think I did eat too much. I didn’t eat bad foods per say, but I know overate the food I had. Last night I had a chicken breast that I had marinated in my own Carribean jerk sauce and powder and cooked on the grill, homemade green beans, and two baked potatoes. I passed on the biscuits and for that I am proud of myself. I just shouldn’t have had those two potatoes, I felt miserable. About 8 pm while watching the boobtube, I had a Reese’s cup and candy bar, even though I was still really full from dinner. I was so pissed at myself. Oh well I vowed to kick ass today and, so far, I have. I had a SlimFast for breakfast, a SlimFast for lunch, and I am eating a Granny smith apple as I type. I am going to have a leftover piece of chicken, I am going to oven roast some zucchini, squash,carrots, and onions and have some salad. I also knocked out 40 minutes of quick stepping this morning as I watched some episodes of Squidbillies. Oh my God, that is the funniest stuff I have ever seen! Google it folks and laugh you tail off! I feel I am going to be victorious today!

   I have to lose 4 to 5 pounds this week again! I know that may sound extreme to some, but I think it’s realistic for someone as overweight as myself. I have cut my caloric intake since starting this journey by I know three quarters. I would be willing to wager that I was eating 4000 to 5000 calories a day and doing nothing in the way of exercising. Now, I am eating abbetween 1700 and 2000 calories a day and working my fanny off exercising, EVERY DAY! I want this yesterday! I am determined to be at 300 lbs by Christmas and I am going to do everything within my power to get to that weight! Patience has never been my strong suit and I want to see a new me and feel free again from my body. No longer a slave to the restrictions obesity has put on me. I want next summer to be the best time of my life. Riding rides at Carowinds and HOPEFULLY, Cedar Point, hiking some of the Appalachian Trail, walking shirtless on Ocean Isle Beach, maybe skydiving, and just some other things that being fat has held me back from doing. I want my couch to wonder, “Where the hell has Dave disappeared to??!’! It’s a race against time for this fella and it’s one I plan on winning!

   I hope all is well with each of you and I just really wanted to say I have missed everyone today, kinda lonely. I know everyone’s busy and sometimes time is hard to find, so I will just say hey ya’ll and David Smith is thinking about ya! Make yours goals today and stick to ‘em. Feel victorious and stay strong! Until the next time………C-Ya!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54YFKGGDJ3A  Yes, for those of you who care, here’s a new video journal entry to watch. I hope some of you can take the time to view it, rate it, and leave a comment or two. As the title infers, I have been doing fantastic at exercising and watching what I eat, but inside, I feel like I am in a losing battle. Average thin people can never imagine the things being fat can do to a person emotionally. It makes you hate your body. It makes you withdraw from being overly social. It makes you feel guilty. I have got to find ways to work on me from the inside out as well. I love having all you in buddyslim.com world, but it’s not the same as being able to share this journey with someone in person. I do not have that in my life. It sucks being alone and knowing that I have so far to go to get where I want to be. Somedays ya just need a hug or an encouraging word or a pat on the back. I feel, no I know, I’m kicking ass on this thing, yet it’s a hollow victory because I just do not have someone special to share it with. I trust that God has a plan I just cannot comprehend and have to have faith that He’s in control. I certainly ain’t quitting!

   I want to thank Tina for being a fantastic first partner for me since I joined the Wildcats. I am hoping they won’t kick me out because I just cannot figure out how to use the “forum” like all the other members seem to. I wish we had a chat room on this here buddyslim site. It would make talking so much easier! Come on Dr. Marc, give us a chat room!!! Tina has been a real inspiration and very supportive. I am extremely thankful for her. Kerstin has also helped pull me outta this funk I have been in the past couple of days. Thank You Kerstin. I also have been inspired by watching Jennifer’s vlogs on youtube. She puts alot of thought into what she says and it resonates with me. I have been kept on point by all of you my friends. When I feel hungry I almost always lose that feeling when I log into buddyslim. I know, it sounds corny, but it works for me.

   Well, I am ready to tackle another week and make that scale go down just a little bit more. I am going to try and stay positive this week and look ahead and not behind. I have atendency to reflact on my past, and that NEVER does me anygood. I am also so glad it’s college football season! I love me some South Carolina Gamecock football. Thursday night I will be in heaven as they take the field for the 2009 season and beat up on the lowly NC State Wolfpack!!! This will be hard for me. I am used to drinking and tailgating, I go to alot of the games in Columbia, SC. I hope you will all pray that I’ll be eating lotsa celery and carrots at the games and at home!!!!!! Until next time…same buudyslim place, same buddyslim time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!